this one's for you

i love youuu, yes i doooo =]

and do you know why i do?
-i enjoy watching your comebacks
yup, that's mainly the reason why!
hahaha jaykay of course its not the only reason why, but its one of the main reasons why.
i'm glad youre ABLE to have those comebacks because not everyone can do that. and when you do have that, i like to laugh along with you cause youz right, DONT LET ANYTHING GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR HAPPINESS CAUSE YOU ARE KIRBY MANALOTO!
-i freaking love your voice.
your talking voice, your singing voice. oh yeah you're really talented. you can sing, play guitar, dance!
-you're everything i could ever want in a guy.
YOU HAVE MANNERS! theres few people who have the manners you do. you respect me & my thoughts, you're just one of the most unselfish people i've ever met. oh yeah did i forget to mention you're talented?
-not only do you have a great personality, but good looks too =]
your smooth forehead, smile, eyebrows, body, oh and ESPECIALLY YOUR EYES. you're so incredibly gorgeous!
-youre fun.
whenever i'm with you i'm just so happy and i can feel us getting closer and our relationship getting stronger ERDAY!
I LOVE YOU! =D

inevitable

so i guess i'm at the stage where i haven't gotten my priorites straight.
the stage where it seems like i need friends more than family.
the stage where i just want to be out all the time, the stage where i'm starting to have a little more freedom and i'm abusing it.

well i must admit- i DO have to get my priorities straight
i dont really need a lot of change though.
i just dint need to go out as much as i'd like :\

i knew it, the feeling.

so, i didn't get to say hello to croatan cause i COULDNT go to the beach:|
i got the promise ring fitted, went home, went to sleep, got ready, and job picked me up around 5something. we ate at pollards chicken and had a deep conversation about food.

would you rather eat a fruit that would satisfy you and you wouldnt ever have to eat again?
would you rather eat one meal that would satisfy you for the rest of your life or eat the same food every meal for the rest of your life?

then we went to cc's and chilled for a little and watched this weird asian movie then met up with theresa and saw fram'd.

there is only one word to describe the musicalish playish type thing: eccentric.
the whole thing was the MUSIC, the characters - all eccentric but it was freaking sweet.
the play was about this king who died at his birthday party and left the kingdom to his daughter cleo who was a pillpopper. she encouraged the arts to flourish. but her advisor- victoria was responsible for the death of the king cause she poisoned ihm and told his nephew jeffery to give it to him cause she convinced him it was special wine. victoria took command of the kingdom cause cleo didnt know what to do. victoria manipulated everyone so they would do whatever she want. then one day jefferey met up with her and victoria told him he was the one who poisoned the king cause he gave it to him, but he didnt know it as poison .she threated to tell everyone but jeffery strangled her cause he was angry and scared. when he came back cleo wanted his help but jefferey said he quit cause he felt responsible for the ikngs death AND he killed victoria. so cleo didnt know what to do either, she was scared and sad and died of an overdose! then jeffery became king and the arts flourished again.
the theme had something to do with change.


after it was over i got a nosebleed =[
theresa's mom picked her up
jon, mark, eric, queenie, jc and i just stood in the parking lot
then jon and i went to mickey d's and went through the drivethrough to get apple pie and cones and we parked and he showed me how to eat it, in the very unique-ular way.

so my mood went from okayish to really really really downish to okayish to goodish to blahish.

psych

why do i have a bad feeling in my tummy about today?
maybe i just have to poop.
but i promised to listen to my gut feeling from now on.
today: hello croatan!

all that glit ters is gold

thank you, honeydarlingloto!
<3

you cant seem to find the answer cause youve been BLIND

Open mic was pretty sweet! Marco and Queenie helped me out, and i didn't do as bad as i thought i would. I thought I did aiight since it was my very first spoken word and I dont really have my own style, yaknow? After that I went to Ginza with Victor and visited Kirby =]

did i tell ya'll i recently joined lookbook?
i only have one look though,
oh welll
i need to find my camera.

YOU ARE THE A BETTER PERSON

As long as you can breathe you can succeed
As long as you have an open mind you can see
As long as you have the will you can exceed
the expectations, live above their expectations
because you are a better person.

How can you learn with a closed mind
When you know you are three steps behind
ANd for some reason you cant seem to find
the answer to the questions that have been lingering in your mind
You can't seem to find the answer because you've been blind

Blinded by the bright light you call satisfaction when in reality the reaction is just a fraction of what you were really trying to find

Find- the meaning of life through drugs, alcohol and sex
and by doing so it just makes your life omre complex
But you have to know you are the better person and you are better than the rest

if you want to open your eyes
you have to open your mind
take three steps ahead and live ABOVE their expectations
because you can breathe, meaning you can succeed
because you are a better person


















































YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY FIRST SPOKEN WORD PIECE AND IM PERFORMING IT TOMORROW OHNOEZZZZZZ
i just finished writing this like 10 minutes ago haha
i am proud of myself =]

FUCK THE LEMONS AND MOVE ON

BECAUSE YOU ARE KIRBY MANALOTO
I AM ERICA AQUINO
YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE

and don't let anything get in the way of your happiness/ good mood!
if you do let something weigh you down, it's just gonna make you sadder and sadder until you're completely lost in that sadness
but if you dont let yourself get lost then you'll be fine, knahwhatimsayin?

robert pattinson isn't really that cute

i mean realllllllllyyYYyyyy! he was only popular because of twilight, and honestly robert pattinson was not the edward cullen i envisioned while reading the twlight saga.

can you believe, i used to be obsessed with tom felton?

that's such a lovely color, it goes with your yes

i feel like i wasted my whole weekend.
i missed the Strawberry Festival, Ashley Bishop's birthday, and Dean's Birthday =[
Instead i went with my family to visit our family friends in Waldorf, Maryland. Our family friend, Uncle Achiles, bought a three story home. the house was still very new so there wasnt ANY furniture at all except for four beds.
we ate dinner on the island in the kitchen, standing since there were no chairs.
on the first floor was the big kitchen and living room, family room dining room, second floor had four bedrooms including the master bedroom and a bathroom, the third floor had a loft and a bathroom and bedroom. i spent most of the time in the empty loft.
uncle achiles brothers [uncle marc and uncle ulysses] were there too. uncle marc brought hihs family [auntie elvie, mark, and isa]. i had to share a room with isa, erin, and my mom.
saturday we didnt do anything. the adults went out and went shopping and the kids just sat at home.
no internet no tv so i jsut sat in one of the empty rooms except for a mattress and read.
yesterday i went to washington dc with uncle ulysses and his wife, uncle achiles, mom, isa, and erin. we saw the motorcyclists parade to the arlington memorial and visit their relatives graves, who were prisoners of war. we visited the washington memorial, walked through the national mall, took pictures at the lincoln memorial, and went to the smithsonian museum. people from the army put on a show at the lincoln memorial, it was a concert.
we walked 5 miles+ and my legs and ankles and knees hurt so bad after that because i wasn't used to walking so much in one day, and i just wore my ankle strap sandals which arent really walking shoes.
today we left around 8 got here around 11 but we went to NEX and that took a while and we ate at the restaurant at founder's inn.

i'm really pissed though because i was looking through all my friend's photos and of course i got jealous because i COULD HAVE BEEN THERE if i wasn't in maryland.
Oh well, i hope we don't go anywhere next memorial's day weekend =[

"i'm not going anywhere"

and neither am i.

learn to let go of tired skin

on friday sheena picked me up afterschool and we went to the mall and landstown commons to pick up application forms. about 1/4 of the stores we went to only hired 18 year olds or older. 1/3 of the applications of the stores we went to were online.

while we were at the mall one of the make up artists at the MICABELLA makeup booth pursuaded me to go there and he did my make up. the eyeshadow is SO versatile. it can be used as eyeshadow, eyeliner,lip gloss, nail polish, and you can even color your hair with it. the make up artist's name was chad. i only had enough money to get me one color, but hopefully i'll be going back soon to make another purchase =D and the foundation he used on me make my skin look like porcelain!

yesterday, saturday, i went with kirby and turned in my applications at: aeropostale, claires, barnes and noble, tropical smoothie cafe, rack room shoes, bath& body works. i'm going to turn in the f21 application today.
while we were at the mall, kirby bought me this GORGEOUS bag that i'm excited to use because its big, exactly what i need and the black bag i usually use has sunblock all over it=[
also, i went to the new japanese steakhouse with sheena on friday and gave the hostess our number because she said the manager is looking for waiters and hosts! hopefully i'll get the call!

awakened

the sun's rays are pouring through the blinds, the birds are singing.
is today going to be a good day?

perfection is defined when your heart beats next to mine

today is me and kirby's FIVE MONTHS =]
we didnt do much to celebrate today since he had work.
but after work and the gym, (which was around 11:15)i was on the phone with him and asked me what i was doing and he told me to go to the door. i opened the door and out of the darkness emerged my lover with a boquet of flowers in one hand and my favorite candybar in the other =]
on our first monthsery, he gave me roses and my favorite candybar, twix.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
you guys have no idea=]

these knuckles break before they bleed

so yesterday we celebrated mother's day at texas roadhouse. i went into the bathroom with my mom and waited for her and while i was waiting i was rubbing my belly because i felt really bloated and full.
elderly woman- are you expecting?
me- excuse me ?
elderly woman - are you expecting?
me- oh, NO!
elderly woman- oh, it just looked like it. your dress is really pretty.

i could tell she was really sweet but COME ON, is my stomach really that big? i'm too lazy to work out =[
well, right after she asked me if i was expecting, a pregnant woman, probably about 7-8 months pregnant walked into the bathroom.

welll on saturday we went to the beach :)
pictures are up there. the horse flies were the m ost annoying thing on that beach. other than that, the beach was pretty nice =]

fueled

to become a better sister.
it's not supposed to be this way.