Sunday, June 14, 2009

the scariest moment in my life.

Weleft the park and drove in silence. I didn't think much of it, I knew we were to sort things out later.

We pulled up in front of my house and he said,"Get your things." I sat there and stared blankly for a few minutes, and before I got up, he handed me the necklace I gave him. I didn't understand what was happening. I knew something was terribly wrong. I looked at him, and he was facing straight ahead, with a stone faced expression.
I didn't want to make him seem even more angry, so i followed his intructions and got out of the car. I opened the door to the back seat and put my things into my bag. While packing my things, I looked at him and asked,"Why did you give this back to me?" holding up the necklace.
He muttered,"I don't know," under is breath and still did not look at me
I started crying silently as I zipped up my bag; I could feel him finally look back at me. I was about to leave my necklace in the back seat, but I felt like I should hand it to him.
I closed the door to the back seat and made my way around the driver's side. I looked at him and he looked back, sliding down his window.
"What?" he asked.
"I love you," I replied. I stuck my hand through the window, attempting to give the necklace back.
He slipped his promise ring onto my right hand and I shook with fear, I felt the tears coming, and fear enveloped my entire being.
He looked at me apoligetically and said," I haven't been doing anything right."
"NO!" I cried. "Please, don't, please!"
"But I've just been letting you down, that's all I've been doing." And with that, he also started crying.
"DON'T LEAVE ME! I know we can work this out, I know we can because I believe in you, I HAVE FAITH IN YOU. Please don't leave me now!" I sobbed.
"But I keep letting you down-"
"PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME! You promised you wouldn't leave me! I love you so much, please don't leave me. Don't give up on us now, please! It doesn't mean you'll keep letting me down- I have faith in you, so much faith. I KNOW we can work it out, just don't leave me!" I sobbed even harder.
He looked at me for a split second, cupped my face into his hands and started kissing me passionately.
He got out of his car and took me into his arms.
"I'm sorry," he whispered. "I'm so sorry."
I stopped sobbing but the tears just fell down my face and I hugged him harder.
"Please, don't cry anymore." I obeyed him, and I felt myself calming down. What does this mean, I thought. Is he leaving or is he staying?
"I love you so much, please don't leave me. You mean so much to me."
"Well, you mean EVERYTHING to me, so I win."
After he said that, I knew he was staying. I looked at him and smiled; he smiled back at me.
I put my arms around his neck and kissed him. When the kiss broke, I said,"Please don't do that EVER AGAIN! I love you too much." I tightened the hug for a second, and when I knew he had trouble breathing I let go and looked at him.
"Promise you won't do that ever again?" I said.
"I promise."

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